Joanie- We share many of the same feelings as well as distinct. Isn't John just a phone call away? Can't I just pick up the phone or webcam and talk to him? Can't I hop on a plane and visit?
I don't know why. How could it be right - at least in my eyes. Where is the part of Romans 8: 28 I want. I try to believe there is a purpose, that God is working it out for good, that all of this touched someone who might otherwise never have been touched. Regardless, I still feel such deep pain, sorrow, and loss.
Everything has changed. And yet I know we'll be with him someday - when its the right time. In the meantime I try to focus on the good things - who he is, all he did, where he is now - cancer and pain free, home with those we love and God himself.
I miss him. More than I can say. I miss you too...but we can at least visit.
I think the rainbow is a miracle meant just for you. To remind you God loves you and there is beauty and hope regardless of the situation. Regardless of the circumstances we now live in. It wasn't just a normal rainbow - but one that you will never forget. I've seen double rainbows, but never the full arc. How special is that? Treasure it as you do your brother. Nothing can ever take that away. I beleive John put in a special request just for you to show you he's watching out for you and that all is well. He's part of that great cloud of witnesses now. Until we're together again. John, my prescious son, I miss you too.
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Joanie- We share many of the same feelings as well as distinct. Isn't John just a phone call away? Can't I just pick up the phone or webcam and talk to him? Can't I hop on a plane and visit?
I don't know why. How could it be right - at least in my eyes. Where is the part of Romans 8: 28 I want. I try to believe there is a purpose, that God is working it out for good, that all of this touched someone who might otherwise never have been touched. Regardless, I still feel such deep pain, sorrow, and loss.
Everything has changed. And yet I know we'll be with him someday - when its the right time. In the meantime I try to focus on the good things - who he is, all he did, where he is now - cancer and pain free, home with those we love and God himself.
I miss him. More than I can say. I miss you too...but we can at least visit.
I think the rainbow is a miracle meant just for you. To remind you God loves you and there is beauty and hope regardless of the situation. Regardless of the circumstances we now live in. It wasn't just a normal rainbow - but one that you will never forget. I've seen double rainbows, but never the full arc. How special is that? Treasure it as you do your brother. Nothing can ever take that away. I beleive John put in a special request just for you to show you he's watching out for you and that all is well. He's part of that great cloud of witnesses now. Until we're together again. John, my prescious son, I miss you too.
All my love, Mom
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